Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Weak Heart - Strong God
One step forward, two steps back.
Go ahead...kick a girl when she's down.
Merry Christmas to me.
I've been emotional, mad, a tad bitter, and now resigned to the fact that God knows a lot better than I do.
I've held this matter on my heart and laid it in God's hands. This whole widow deal has taught me that I am in control of nothing.
Maybe that's a good thing.
I'd probably mess it up anyway.
Today someone remarked, "You are the strongest person I know." I gave them a weak smile and thanked them for the compliment as my insides rang with "IF YOU ONLY KNEW WHAT A JIGGLING MASS OF JELLO I AM, YOU WOULD PITY ME RATHER THAN BE PROUD OF ME."
I am NOT strong.
I have a very strong God.