Showing posts with label changes. Show all posts
Showing posts with label changes. Show all posts

Saturday, July 21, 2012

Courage to Start All Over Again

“For what it’s worth: it’s never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the courage to start all over again.” 
Eric RothThe Curious Case of Benjamin Button screenplay ~


For two years I have lived in limbo land...trying to live my old life without Steve.  Well, to a rational person, this idea was a fantasy that could not be a reality.  I now know it was fantasy...it just took me a long time to figure that out.  The reality is that I had to give up many fascists of my old life and make the best of the life I have now.

See the reality sign
that says SOLD?
So, I made (or tried to make) some positive changes in my life that took me way out of my comfort zone.  To my great disappointment, one didn't work out for me.  But the other, not only worked out...it was a slam dunk.  

I bought a new house.
Well, make that a town house.
I closed on it Friday.
I'm leaving my adult sons behind in the family home and moving on (or moving on up...to the east side).

Since I am in no rush to move, I'm going to do it a room at a time.  And, the old family home is getting the great enema...a purge of all the flotsam and jetsam that has drifted its way into every nook and cranny of our house over the 26 years we've lived there. I am going to toss the stuff without 
value and donate the rest. The Rivers of Living Water
Thrift Store is going to LOVE me!!!!

This move is my first step in starting all over again.
It's a giant leap for me, but I'm jumping without fear.
And that, my friends, makes me proud of myself.

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Cyna




Thursday, July 28, 2011

Not the End of My Story


I know that the death of my husband did not end the story of my life, but it did end many, many chapters of it.  For a year, I've closed the book of my life and remained in stasis.  It's time to open the book again and move forward.

I don't know what direction I am going to take from here, but I know that  changes have to be made.  For those of you that know me, change is NOT my friend.

These are some things I am contemplating:

  • returning to grad school and getting my doctorate
  • moving out of this big house an into a town home
  • taking a photography class
  • taking more ballroom dancing classes 
  • taking my freelance writing seriously and submit articles on a regular basis
  • taking yoga again
  • volunteering as a tutor at the Children's Home

With school starting on Monday, I've picked a rotten time to do something new, but I'm going to pick one and go with it.  I'll keep you posted on my progress.

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Cyna