Sad Sad Birthday Without You

Happy Birthday to me.  It's my first without Steve.  He always made a big deal out of my birthday and I will miss whatever surprise he had in store for me.  My sweet, sweet sons gave me a new set of dishes...something I have wanted for a while.  I didn't even have to remind them it was my birthday, which makes me smile and cry at the same time.  While I am blessed to have friends and family to love me through this first birthday without my husband, I am still missing him.  I don't think this feeling ever goes away.  

The poem below is by Holly Nicole Williams and it appropriately mirrors my mixed emotions today. 

Blow out the candles
Make a wish
Blow up some balloons
Fix my favorite dish
Laugh with friends
Open some gifts
Hugs and kisses from family
Nothing left to miss
All except for you...
All my birthday wishes mean nothing
If I don't have you.

It's gonna be a sad sad birthday without you
There will be no hug
There will be no kiss
No card to me from you
Your very presence I'll miss
No wishes to come true
It's gonna be a sad sad birthday without you.

I'll laugh out loud
I'll chit chat with friends
But you'll be in my thoughts
Time and time again
I'll see everyone's smiling faces
All except for one
Everything in it's place
Again...
All except for one.

No card to me from you
No wishes to come true
It's gonna be a sad sad birthday without you. 

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Cyna